Do you need to let go of seeing yourself as a failure, a loser, or some such limiting concept? Could this be what Jesus means when he says repent, turn away from these negative images of who you are and accept your belovedness?
I have been listening to Nicky Clinch tell her story of transformation in her audio book, Surrender. It has me pondering these thoughts. Sometimes our lives can be shaped by the way we perceived situations as children that aren’t even based in truth. One of my grandmothers believed that her mother left her when she was an infant and never came to look for her. With the help of the internet, I found out the truth was that her mother died at that time. I wish she had still been alive when I found out.
We are alive and no matter how old we are, it is never too late to find our truth. May it be so.